Saturday, June 11, 2011

gratitude

It's been quite some time since I've posted...Eleanor was sick in April for 2 weeks with pneumonia and another week from the antibiotics. And then May just kinda got away from me.

OK, so I don't believe in a higher power, but I'm trying to figure out exactly where to direct my gratitude today...
Exclamations like "Thank God" come to mind, and I actually am not sure where I stand on the premise of Luck these days...

But back to the gratitude part: Eleanor is sick again today with a fever spiking up to 104.  She's acting OK, not like with the pneumonia, but pretty disinterested in food.  And I have this immense gratitude in my heart for the fact that we are still nursing.

I have a love-hate relationship with breastfeeding.  She nurses to sleep for naps and bedtime and it just seems never-ending some days...I worry that she'll still be nursing when she goes to university, as she shows absolutely no propensity to stopping on her own. So I find myself reading articles like Weaning Slowly, With Love...and Nightweaning...and dream of the premise of sleeping through the night again.

But then there are days like today, when I KNOW she feels crappy, and I KNOW that I can insure that she stays hydrated and gets calories even if she doesn't want to eat.

So I would like to send out a big ol' THANK YOU to the universe, for granting me this ability to care for my baby.  And while I'm at it, I should probably thank modern medicine for Advil/Tylenol, too, eh? ;)